Dollars and Sense

SHIFTed!

2008-03-06T01:01:00.001+08:00

Shifting my blog to a new one as it is easier to upload and change the format.

http://web.mac.com/geargina_tan/Site/Welcome.html

yes yes i will make sure this is the last time i change it. Thanks to Mac...love it!
To all who still visits, god bless ya! and see ya in my new link. Cheers!

Cat found, but not alive

2007-11-14T13:16:00.000+08:00

"Cat found, but not alive"

Got a call from the condo management this monring at 9.47am. Was wondering who would call at such ann unearthly hour(in my terms, it is a holiday for me afterall). Then a guy started talking, explaining that he saw my poster and that he is from the management. Apparently they found my cat last week, it is already decomposed and almost hard to identify. But according to him, the color of the cat fits my description, so is the size. Still no sigh of the collar, so its still a 50/50 chance. Sigh... dont really know what to feel or what to expect. Gald that there is a closure...sad that his no longer around. Such irony.

Been losing alot of stuff this year, my wallet...water bottle(small issue but still losing stuff), lost my cat and the worse is losing a friend to a fatal car accident. On the brighter side, no entirely a year of lost, gain a few stuff as well. More friends, a better perspective to life that it should always be treasured, learn to appreciate my family anf friends better.

Well, next year will be a better year. Another year means another year of growth. Still look ahead and thanking God for all the things that had happened. It made me wiser... even if it is just a little bit.

"Detox Day 3, 4 and 5"

2007-07-22T00:21:00.000+08:00

"Detox Day 3, 4 and 5"

Day 3

Less cravings today, went on with my daily routine of going school. Feeling almost 'god-like'. Basically not feeling hungry that easily, the feeling of lethergic after lunch no longer there. I must say it feels good. As usual had green apple + carrots or watermelon juice and the usual vp, indinine and fiber for meals. Less headaches to think of what to eat. Lol.

Technically if I drink:

2 carrots per meal + 1 green apple X 2 cups = 4 carrots + 2 green apples
3 meals I would have consumed = 12 carrots + 6 green apples
vp itself per pack is 4 kg of orgainic veggie nutrient so x 3 meals = 12kg of organic veggie nutrients.
Not to forget at times I drink watermelon as and when I like.

Woah... that's alot of good stuff going into my tummy. =) Feeling cleaner already. Visited the toilet a few times(quite alot actually), my shit is black like...really black. Those must be the sticky stools they talk about. thank God they are out.

Day 4

No school today. Drank juice from home since mum brought organic fruits. I must say it feels more full to drink organic fruit juice than the usual. So it really makes a difference between normal fruits and the organic ones. Met with the 'Gang' to play Dota at Bt Timah. Haa, quite fun actually and since it was my second attempt I think I am starting to get the hang of it. They had prata for dinner, as usual was asked the question 'You not eating?'. Haa can be quite fun.

Went toilet, my big business is green in color. Look abit like weed haa but i guess its the fiber.

Day 5

Met with Rikki to go for his Uncle concert. I must say they are not bad. Music are more towards the line of punk rock which can be at certain times painful to the ear, nevertheless enjoyable. By today even if looking at people eat the feeling of craving is close to zero. Thats a good sign. By now I feel good, face feels cleaner, less week had quite abit of small pimples at my fore head, they are gone now. Loss some fats at the tummy area, no more pertruding fats at the hips! thighs seems smaller but i think it can be better. Still have a few days to go. Jia you!!!

Detox Day 1 and 2

2007-07-18T22:09:00.000+08:00

"Detox Day 1 and 2"

Yes guys i am on a full detox program. Meaning No solids, just juices, Vp (tablets form of organic veggie, 4 kg per pack to be exact), fiber (to help me pass motion) and idinine (to give me energy). Being sick recently just irritates me and I think i need to work body system. So the whole point now is the rest the stomach and allow excess energry to heal the rest of my system. As you know digesting takes up alot of strenegth and energy which explains why we often feel tired afer a meal. Yup just a brief explaination for those have no idea what detox is about.

The reults of it - more energetic, no more feeling lethergic. smoother skin, lighter dark rings, going to toilet in a more frequent basis (i'm talking about the big business) and of cos the best by-product is slimming down. I know to most people i'm not that weighted challenged but i still want to lose some at the thighs, I think it can be better. Yup! Wish me luck!

Day 1

The first day is usally the torture. Cravings all the time, the towrse part is going to the canteen with my friends to watch them eat. The worse part is osme of them don't know that I'm on a detox program and offered me food. Lol, but it was good training for discipline, makes you train the mind. Healing crisis i experience was feeling tired and abit drowsy on the head. Guess it's due to my recent bad habit of sleeping late, apparently my body wants a rest. So yup, turned in early after dealing with project stuff. Drank lots of water and juices.. first day not easy but so far so good.

Day 2

After a good sleep and waking up at a decent hour (finally!) at 8.30am I wake up feeling good. Short healing crisis, waas hoping to get abit more. Anyways only a 2 days into detoxing so still hard to say. Less cravings now, quite amazed on how I can survive without solids. The program is working and doing good. I've seem many testimonals, but to experience it is a totally different feeling. Yup! Jia you on my part. Darn still have abit of craving to bit on something.... lol

Yes I am Offically 23

2007-07-13T00:15:00.000+08:00

"Yes I am Offically 23"

Yes, as from 9th July I am offcially 23 years old! Yup, want to thank everyone who remembered this day of mine and made it extra special for me. I got the LG Prada phone i wanted! Lovely little phone with sleek elegenance. Apparently it has been planned before hand by Nicholas to surprise me...cunning i might say but still it was sweet. =)

Had a great time hanging out with the 'gang'. For the first time in my life I played DoTa. Quite enjoyable I might add. And I always told my mum i should have been a guy, all the games and teakwundo stuff doesn't fit a profile of a girl if you know what I mean.

Had a great time hanging out with Stephs(yup there is 2 of them) too! At Holland eating Crystal Jade. I think once a while just girls hanging out was great fun! Can't wait for our next girly outing. Next time maybe i we should invite another steph. (as you can see I have alot of stephs as friends)

Also want to thank Rikki's friend to treating me to a movie although I think i just got to know you guys for like 2 outings? I think you guys are great fun to hang out with and yes I enjoy the strategy games we were playing, lol. Once while I had to excerise my brain to keep it working.

There is of cos Summer for lending her place to hold my little gathering with my close friends. The Vegeterian food by her mum is great, nothing like we ever tasted before.

And to all others who took 5 seconds of your time to sms or wish me personally me Happy Birthday. =) It mean alot to me altough it's just 2 words.

Not to forget my sweet boyfriend who planned everything. I love the phone and the ring you gave me. Shiny.. I like..hee. Muack!

Cheers to all!

*Note to self... do not drink peppermint green milk tea ever again. Had a bad tummy pain and visited the toliet like 8 times. -.-"

Almost The End of holidays

2007-06-26T17:00:00.000+08:00

"Almost The End of holidays"
As the title says, it's almost the end of the holidays and I always thought that I have an extra one more week. Guess I calculated wrongly. Well, nevertheless I guess it is good. Got to go do my hair on Friday, heee, been meaning to do that for some time.

Well this whole week has been stay home and rest week. Came down with a fever, I can't remember the last time I was so sick that I must be home bound. The feeling of your brain juice swirling around your brain, yucks! I guess I haven been the most discipline Geargina during the holidays. this fever is a wake up call, to feel sick, cough and flu argh, the feeling is horrible. Thankfully the fever is gone now, just the flu and cough remains so I guess I will live....=p

Still, glad that Sabrina has agreed to go 14 day detox program with me. I just went for a short one, the 5 day one a few months ago, but I guess the 'not-taking-care-and-anyhow-eat' holidays has totally crossed out the benefits that 5 day programs has brought for me. This time round I trying to turn the tables back, oh and of course because I realise I put on some weight after my shopping trip with my mum...sigh, and I thought I could get more clothes.

That a side, looking forward for school! Timetable is out and most of my lessons are in the morning, this means I am forced to wake up early, which is good! Just what I needed to tune back my Bio-clock. Always stick to the 'When-I-am-30,I-look-20' plan. YUP!

Hell week

2007-06-17T00:10:00.000+08:00

Finally had time to blog again. Hell week for me. Dealt with an external printing project from the NS and i must say it is nothing but tough work. Their deisgn is really hard to print and bind, complicated and most of all payment is inefficient. Just realise I still need to prastice more on my EQ and AQ control, when shit happens must really find ways to be clam. Still hav alot to learn, from understanding the process of design layout we should prepare them, all the way to printing and payment matters. SYSTEM! thats the word, we need to better system.

Nevertheless hell is over and I learnt a valuable lesson. Went to St James powerhouse to clelebrate STOMP's birthday bash. Apparently it is quite a successful forum in Singapore, think I might consider joining their community, never hurts to know more people. =) Live and Love life to the fullest!

As promised these are some chalet photos taken when we were watching the sunrise. Still thinking if I should hold a similiar party for my birthday. Still thinking....

A weekend of chalet

2007-06-04T12:12:00.000+08:00

"A weekend of chalet"

Just got back from a weekend of chalet. I would say it is a success! Everyone had fun and bonded just over one night. Of course all thanks to the everyone who chipped in to help. I think this was the first time people who are stragners end up being friends over night, yah! If even Zhi Min's mentor, Henry says it's good then I think it's great. Hee

We had games (Guess who is in the games committee? - Hui Wen and I!) like 'Real or not Real', 'The Blanket game', 'Guess the movie', 'Murderer', '99 points' and etc. And the more interesting part is that food are all vegerterian! Try vegeterian BBQ food, it's really plays with your imagination. Lol.

Just want to thank everyone who helpd out, first and fore most Henry and Summer for taking their time to come for our team's chalet. Then Zhi Min for organising,Dickson and Peter for the spendid food, Sidik,Hui Wen and Joseph for helping in the games. And of course those who came for our chalet, Rikki, Nicholas Foo, Ashley, Lucy, Sabrina, Brian, Clarissa, Wei Ling, K.C,Jia yuan and Jia Xin. Yup! The next one will be a bigger and better one!

I think the best time was in the morning when the group went to appreciate the sun-rise in the morning. Honesty I had no idea it will be that beautiful. When I manage to get the pictures from Jai Xing I will upload them. =)

Well! Got to catch up with abit more sleep. Till then....Zzzz(smile)

2007-05-23T16:17:00.000+08:00

What is the difference?

This after I saw a documentery on Channel News Asia, it's called making the millionaire. Ironically when I chaneel surf to another channel they are having and interview with the world's youngest self made billionaire. (Founders of goggle). I can't help but wonder, what makes them different from others that gave them the result today?

They too started from nothing are are common as anyone walking down the streets. Started from scratch and slowly taking their way up. They had their times of down fall and times of peak, but they just keep going. Luck and passion. Hard work yes, but with luck and passion, it brings us no where.

I aspire to be a millionaire by the age 30. And the guy in channel News Asia made it and at age 30 his net worth is $15million. Well I am thankful my bf's got a mentor whose net worth is $10 million so I guess I am not that far off. Recently we started a company called Diamond Green. We chose that name beause we want for the company to have purity and strength of a diamond and be as close to mother nature as possible. Holistic health is what we are looking at. The mind, the body and the soul. Exciting journey I can see is coming ahead. =)

When I grad I should also look into being a share-holder in my father's company. Either that or a branch. Yes I can see where I am heading, shareholder and possiblity CEO of many businessness. So far I got 2 in the making. Jai you!

Exams over!

2007-05-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

"Exams over!"

YUP! The exams are finally over~! Whew! I can feel smeel the air of freedom! Although its only 2 papers but its enough to get me worried. Especially the management accounting paper. This time round i think i can pass yah! Glad i made the decision to retake although they offer me to drop it in exchange for another module. as the say " How you do something is how you do everything" and i'm glad i persevere thru!

Been snacking too much lately though. The holiday going to excerise to tone my body and adjust back to my lifestyle. Need to improve on my health after all those late nights and snacks. Recently my friend came across an article of a HP employee died due to stress. There are 2 links to it -

It's been some time

2007-04-28T00:46:00.000+08:00

"It's been some time"

...since i've blogged. Alright i admit i got abit sloppy also abit busy with exams and stuff. Met up with a group of friend to send Perlin for her farewell dinner. She's going to US to get married. Feel happy for her that she found someone she can be happy with. =) Goodness i think I'm reaching the age where people are getting not attached but married. Soon i will be hearing about babies and housing loans. Glad to know that Brian and well..we all know who is finally(i wont name you k? hee) attached offically. Hee, i think thats great news!

Then there is Jeremy's Birthday. Good to see 'the gang' after a long time. You know the good thing about our group is we have like 9 people in our group, so we will at least see each other 9 times in the year and that does not include New Year and X'mas. Everyone came be too bad Su Qin was unable to join us. She's coming back soon! Can hear about her experiences and stuff.. GREAT! anyway hope Jeremy(cousin) likes the present we got him, and wish him all the best for everything. Most importantly always stay Happy. =)

Well it's exams period and stress level is increasing. This time round really want to make it for Management Accounting. Making good progress so far. I believe if i'm optimistic and work hard on it, i can make it this time. Hee, you know the feeling everything something good will happen, yup this year i keep getting the good vibe. =)

It's almost 1am. Time to get Beauty sleep..note to self: After exams need to get regular excerise. Time to get in really good shape. Having all the nutritional food is not good enough without excerise. Yuppers! Jia You!

After one ordeal the next has arrived

2007-04-16T15:10:00.000+08:00

"After one ordeal the next has arrived"

Finally the project craze has ended. Feel so much light now. =) Getting a rest day today and it feels good. Tomorrow another ordeal will start. Got to start studying for my exams. This time round i have to make it for management accounting, dont intend to stay for an extra semester.

Today is the 2nd day of my pre-detoxing program. So far so good, only took porriage and fruits. Could have taken heavier stuff but i think its better to start getting use to light stuff, so that wont feel too much hunger when the actual thing sets in. Can't wait to see the results when it all ends =)

Went for a fashion show with Faith, Orange and my sis...and i must say the clothes are gorgeous! Pity i didnt take pictures. I think the next time i go for such an event must to bring the camera.
Met up with the wan ting and Celena to club at Double O. It's been ages since i step onto a clubbing area. Dancing was fun but all the guys trying to flock us is extremely irritating. Thank God i'm born tall. I guess that scare guys a little bit.

Overall we girls had a good chat. I think it's been age since us as Fairsian met up to chat. We all concluded that i made the most change since sch days. I like to take that as a compliment. Haa. ?Still glad we are still friends after all this time, really cherish friends like that. We all adapt to time as we grow.

It makes me wonder, when i'm 30 how will things be? I believe i will continue to grow and be a better person. I chose to live my life to the fullest and love every minute of it despite the good and the bad. The age gracfully kind of girl..now that sounds good to me. Time and tide wait for no man, Georgy need to jia you! Yosh!

Now to carrying on with my R & R (rest and relax) day..chill out..

2 more projects to go

2007-04-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

"2 more projects to go"

After 2 weeks of torture i finally fallen ill...flu and cough close to a fever. I think i haven felt so sick in a long time. I guess this time round i over did my limit. Thankfully had a good rest today. Really have to thank William, Steph, Li Jing and Kenneath for helping out in the WIL project, appreciate it!

Well got to hang out with Orange and Faith. Was great meeting up with them again. sometimes its really great to meet up with old friend to catch up. There is no barriers and everything is so comfortable. Meeting them again on Saturday then together we will do the detox program. Misery loves company and yeah! i got company...*giggle

These few days a thought keep coming to me. It's been sometime since i've interview Dave Rogers for my Sprit of Enterprise project but he just simply leaves an impression. I rememebered asking him.. so what do you think is the secret to success? Kinda expecting something like hard work or techique etc..instead i answer i got is 'LUCK'. For the moment i was like woah...wait a minute... 'LUCK'?

What happen to you must work hard, you have to study blah blah blah. But to think about it hink his right to a certain extend. I mean its not like you dont have to work hard and everything but if you are at the right place at the right time meeting the right person, things do happen out of the blue without you knowing.

What the mind can conceive it can achieve.

I think there is a truth to what his saying. at times people just need that moment and bam! you have it, everything just rolls into place. I like to believe that i'm lucky, that everything i touch, everyone i come in contact with will be blessed too. It's not a bad thing to believe in eh? =)

So from now on call me LUCKY GEAR! Heee... Zzz...

Project Craze

2007-04-01T16:14:00.000+08:00

Project Craze

Past week has been crazy. My bio clock is messed up, project till 7 am in the morning, sleep from 8am to 1 pm then back to work all over again. AND ITS BEEN HAPPENING FOR 4 DAYS ALREADY! Sort if think i might continue till end of April.

This is seriously not healthy. Bad sleep, unhealthy food, nagging from mum for sleeping so late, missing out on importnt gatherings and totally waste of money (due to lots of junk and travelling around friends place to do project). For 30% of project maqkrs it not worth. Some times i wonder how i subject myself to such torture. If i were to look on the brighter side of this, i appreciate my sleep and health very much more. The feeling of not being able to sleep and the after maths of that is backaches, blur vision, headaches and cranky...not good.

After this i'm seriously going for a detox program. Need to get health back inplace else i might starting turning green like Darryl. The lack of sleep made his face pale green literally. Got to flush all the junk i've eaten the past few weeks out for good.

To Faith and Orange, so sorry i got to postpone our meeting again. I've been a crazy month and i've got at least 2 more weeks of that. Promise to make it this week though. =) To Lester, my apologises for missing on your birthday celebration. Miss you guys, got to meet up soon to do catching up.

Looking on the bright side, only have exams after this month of hell. Kinda makes me wonder... project or exams is better? Its like choosing between the devil and the sea.

Well! sure things will go for the better. This is life anyway, full of colors and 'excitment' haa...man i'm so tired till i'm starting to entertain myself. Zone out....

Keeping Fit!

2007-03-28T00:39:00.000+08:00

Keeping Fit!

It's a day of keeping fit. Went to taekwundo to work out, in the end got con by Sir Robin to take class. Anyways it turn out to be quite fun despite the poor attendance. I guess something is not about the number but rather the quality.

With the tons of project coming everyone's way, the stress is mounting up. However on a bright note, my dad's building is going to N-block soon. This means that if he sells the property he stand to make a good profit. I'm happy for my parents, to get a break from all the hard work and have time to travel. If eveything works well i get to travel to Europe for a month with my family. =)

Still no news from the 'deal or no deal' guys. Still too early to tell if they have selected the candidates, *crosses my finger, hope they will call real soon. I think it will be a fun gameshow. Hee.

Going on a detox prgram end of this month. Clear out all the rubbish in my body at the same time renew abit of my blood. Not too long, only 5 days and if everything goes well i will want to try to 14 day one. Save time and energy decieding what to eat everyday and most of the time i feel bad to eat little veggie. (you have to understand i dont like veggie). Yup! on a keeping healthy lifestyle, so far i'm feeling the good effects. Will keep moving!

Zzz...gtg now. Lights out!

2007-03-22T00:45:00.000+08:00

Man it's been sometime since i've blogged. Life has been busy but fruitful. Strange enough that within a week so many things can hpeen till i can't think of what to type anymore.

Been thru and forth about some things, on the my way back i got into thinking about stuff back then and stuff thats happening. How they all inter-connect with each other, how one thing led to another. You see, one big quesiton that hit me during the 'deal or no deal' audition is when i was asked "so do you have any regrets in your life?". I replied "No." And thats the truth.

Yah i've been thru my fair share of shitty stuff, got betrayed by friends, a little of mild depression, got really hurt by people, failed many times, blame my friends, parents and God at times for things that don't go well. Nevertheless I never regret them, i still love my family, still forgave my past, still is a winner, i appreciate people aound me who cherish and treat me as a person.

See today i'm just blabbering things out of no where. My thoughts are not organised. I think i've overworked alittle. Georgie needs R & R (rest and relax)... and slow my pace down a little. Organise abit of my thoughts.

Things i want to do (not need to do):
1. Go for my detox program to 'clean my inner body'
2. Add abit of color to my hair
3. Find a day to slack and watch TV the whole day
4. Go excerise, maybe taekwundo for that matter
5. Go for my facial appointment
6. SHOPPING!
7. Go KTV and sing my heart out

Yuppers! Got to go Zzzz..goosh its 1am. Need beauty sleep...

A Day of Rest

2007-03-11T21:33:00.000+08:00

"A Day of Rest"

Drop by to Media corp early this morning for the audition 'Deal or No Deal'. Before we went in we were shown a US version of the clip. Very exciting man! And their cash prize is 1 million instead of Singapore $250k. Well, it free money so we shouldn't complaint much about the cash prize. I think overall the audition went well. From my experience, if they ask you if your free on a certain date, chances are you'll get to go on the show. Now it's just a matter of waiting for the phone call....And i am a quarter million richer. *giggle

Later the day went to Vivo City to watch 300. I like the show, the director is good and the way the film is shoot is very refreshing. Thumbs up from me! Nevertheless, lesson learnt is never attempt to wait for a show for 4 hours in vivo, legs will get pretty tired.

It's a good Sunday, get rest from the busy school schedule. Next week is killer week again, but still looking forward to it though. I think it might be very fun. So far it's been a great year. In a wink of an eye 3 months has past. Time really wait for no man. Nevertheless i've helped many of my friends around me to be healthier(both internal and external) and happier. There is a certain joy to that. Strange enough everytime i see my iris in front of the mirror i'm reminded how i should be taking care of myself too. Less late nights, no supper and more veggie. =)

*Meow*

Are we strong or fragile?

2007-03-07T19:12:00.000+08:00

"Are we strong or fragile?"

Got a scare of my life last night when my sister brought a cat back home crying. The cat's fur seems to be shaved by someone, it was limping and it's tail appeared to be cutted off. she starting sobbing 'jie jie i think this is Brownie'. At this instant my heart just drop and my legs when numb. However i try to be compose and asked my sister no to panic and bring the black cat in.

Upon further investigation the black cat turn out to be a female cat. You see, Brownie is a male. A great sigh of relieve for me. I went looking for my fat cat and lo-and-behold, his right at my neighbour's garden. Well the stray cat seems to be in a pretty bad shape. My sister decided to call the SPCA and put it down, end her suffering.

As much as i got fright, i realise how much i adore these 2 cats of mine. I will just be extremely heart broken if anything happens to them. Nevertheless it brings a reality to light, looking at the cat's condition i must be been thru much suffering.

How fragile is life? Are we really strong as we perceive to be? We see inspiring show where people beat the odds of life and became a great hero, in contrast we see how diseases and natural disaster wipe as out in a matter of minutes. Irony of life. So what are we? People reach 30 plus start to have cancers, diabeties, high blood pressure and etc. What's happeing to our society now? Such problems use to happen on old people in the past, but now it's happenin to middle aged people. Will there ever come a time when it will happen to the teenagers?

Going to bring some friends to Iris check-up(its sort of a health checkup to show the condidtion of your health status), i really hope it will help them like it have helped me to be more aware of my health status. Prevention is always better than cure. I dont think i will like it if i hit the age 30 and people around me are falling ill. That's really not fun.

In the mean time, i can only do the best of my ability to take care of my health. Remind my family and friends to be healthy not only in terms of body but in mind and spirt too. Balance of life i guess, its the way God made earth to be.

Choices

2007-03-04T22:21:00.000+08:00

"Choices"

Been a busy week, lagging on my posts. Finally the compeition has ended. Would say we did the best this year, but some how i see abit of light for the club in the future. It's a kind of feeling you get, not something i can explain. Makes me...a little happy actually.

As i dorve my way back to my house from my family reunion i can't help but wonder, how different life will be if i haven choosen to take on NTU's invitiation to their school instead of choosing to go SIM. Would i be in their taekwundo club instead? What if i didnt chose to futher my studies and start a branch of my father's company? What will i be today?

It just boggers the mind to think, what ever decisions i make today, will affect my future. Think about it, if i have choose to take a NTU path, i probably would never know my SIM friends, might not have continued my relationship with my current boyfriend, may not go back to SP to coach and get to know my students better and iin the end i may just be struggling with writing journals and what-so-ever.

All i know i made decisions which i feel make make me a happier person. I'm happy now, if i were to compared the 'expected' kind of life i'm suppose to have in NTU or open a branch of business, i might not feel as fulfilled. NTU is a plance many wants to go to but its not me, owning a business is my dream but i know at that point of time i'm not ready for that. And all these starts from one decision. I guess that is what most people call the 'cross-road of life'. An impact of making choices which has a ripple affect to the future.

All these thoughts from a drive back home. Let's live life with no regrets.

What defines Success?

2007-02-26T11:35:00.000+08:00

What defines Success?

Had a long training session with the girls on Sunday. The competition is this Friday evening. It's been 3 years since I've been incharged of a pattern team. Time really fly. Past 2 years we only manage to attain a bronze. This year i'm aimming for a Gold.

In the mean time my boyfriend, was at visiting Mr Nicholas Chia at his home. Of course no opportunity was wasted he was bombered by many question in regards to his. Just abit of background, Mr Nicholas Chia is one of the most well respected person i know. Apart from the fact his wealthy, and i must add the word 'extremely'. Let's just put it this way, his son wants to study medicial overseas. Every year the fees will cost $100,000 and to complete the course it will take 5 years. That will be just the degree alone will cost half a million! But his reasoning was, 'To me, part of success is to be able to give my children a future, for them to have the freedom to do what they want to do in life'

Many people have different dream in regards to what they want out of life. But how many of us are able to fulfill that? What is sucess in our defination? Is is always money? Many of us are blinded by the illusion that money is the most important thing in our life, but have we forgotten that it's just paper? It's what money can bring us that we all are really persuing.

What hit me was Nr Nicholas Chia's daughter is far from a spolit brat. She's smart and at the age of 6 she already has the rope of business and respect others. This is taught by none other that her father. In the future she will be a great business women.

So what is sucess? I think it boils down of what are you earning for? You say it's for a future, yet what kind of future are you looking at? To have a big house but only ou living in it? A sports car but only you can sit in? Somehow or another i conclude that all these things are for people to see, to impress but deep inside we may not be searching for that.

For me and my boyfriend, we just want a future where we can do what we want. He wants to be a speaker, i want to have good life of carefree without money worries. We both want a future where we can give our children their future and travel the world to see and expereience this earth.

What is does success hold for you?

How good it is, if we could just live a relax life?

2007-02-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

How good it is, if we could just live a relax life?

Brought my cats to be sterilised today. Was pretty scary, they meowed when we were about left, it was heart breaking however it needs to be done. I can't imagine if they were to have more kittens and no one take cares of them. The end results might probably be SPCA then put to sleep.

When they got back the seem abit stunned, thank God towards the end of the day they seem more active. Thanks to Darryl for helping me out to bring them to the vet. Tough to handle 2 cats when i have to drive. On a brighter note, mum finally gave the full green light to keep the Baby and Brownie for good. Her theory was 'aiyo, you already 'cut' them off, we have to take care of them for life already'.

Nevertheless today seems rather relax apart from EV meeting in the morning. How good it is, if we could just live a relax life? The lack of stress, increase in enjoyment and just chill. The new report says Lee Kuan Yew predicts that Singapore will be one of the top notch country in 10-20 years time. It's always a question if that's a good thing or a bad thing? Yes it means more opportunity and competitiveness but what bout the increase in stress? People getting busy and neglecting family and health in the pursue of their careers? I guess it ironic how government wants higher birth rate when we barely have the time to...you know..have sex? Talk about the balance of life.

In the midst of all these i think it serves as an reminder. I'm lazy, i mean i really like to live a life that is relax, take my time to do what i like and breath in fresh air once in awhile. Which is a good reason why now i should be working hard, retire early and enjoyt he rest of my life. Not work till i'm 65. Blah thats a horrible thoughts. Yup! Planning future. $5 a day makes the money pot grow fat.

Take me as i am

2007-02-22T00:04:00.000+08:00

Take me as i am

Man its been a busy Chinese New Year. None stop visiting for the past 3 days. I guess not much has changed. I mean every time the family meet the standard questions will be asked "Oh you still studying? At Where? How long more before you graduate?" Nevertheless it's great to see everyone again. After all we only meet once a year.

However this New Year brings new thoughts. Maybe its the age thing when we all start to grow up and have more responsibilities. How long more will i be able to receive the red packet before its time for me to give? Apparently its starting to happen when 2 of my relatives forgotten to give me red packet. It seems that as we grow older the less red packet we will receive. It seems like a sad truth, more responsibilities and less red packets. Well at least in my case.

On a brighter note, my luck seems to be getting better. Won abit of black jack with my boyfriend, we sort of have this alliance to share our 'investment'. I think we work well as a couple. My teacher once told me that a person's other half makes up 80% of his/her success. I'm starting to believe there is a certain truth to that. To think about it, if i have a boyfriend who puts me down telling me how less a human i am, i'll probably be a very unconfident person. The fact works the same if my boyfriend is one whose always reassuring me that i'm a great person.

Took quite a few relationships for me to figure that out. Sometimes we lose our way in recognizing who we really are and hope to find it from someone else. The truth is, how well do we really know ourselves? Everyday I'm discovering new things i never know until it was pointed out to me. Do you really know who you are? Or are some of us just in denial of our own identity?

If not, why do so many people seek to mimic celebrities or actors? Can we not accept who we are that we are unique in our own way? I always felt its nice to meet people who are comfortable in their own skin. They don't have to the most gorgeous looking person, but they certainly have their own charm and charisma.

I'm not perfect, however i do try to be real to people i meet. Learning to be who i am and accept the person i am. I guess we can never please everyone we meet, the very least i am real. People just have to 'Take me as i am', it makes life easier and happier. =)

Do we really forgive and forget?

2007-02-17T12:50:00.000+08:00

Do we really forgive and forget?

Had a dream last night, not one of good but one of disturbing. Dreamt that a father figure told my boyfriend that I'm not a good girlfriend and that I'm a hindrance to his success. When i woke up i can't help but wonder, am i a girlfriend material?

In my life i had numerous number of 'guy-friends' and an official of 4 boyfriends. The first one was one that was the sweetest but also the most painful to remember. Took me 5 years to finally gotten a closure...or have i? The ripple effect of the relationship seems to pass on from one to another. From the second to the third, third to the fourth it just didn't work out until this current one. It seems perfect and it feels that I've forgotten the past experiences.

We've been together for 3 years, in between we had a short break before we came back together. Logic says we should be stronger and the bond should be better, but is that true? Have i forgave myself for causing the break due to my infidelity?

Aftering taking a break and playing with my cat (the white one) who is also alone for the day as her brother(the brown one) was out at a friend's place, a thought dawn on to me. Was the dream a reflection of my own fears? If it is how do i go about conquering that? I dont see myself as a very bad person but neither have i seen myself as a great person. Then it stuck me, that inorder to overcome this ordeal the answer is simple. Just face it. But man if that word 'fear' a scary face.

I realise a need to confront a side of me i've been hiding all his while. A vunerable side which i've seal since my first relationship. To put myself out there and feel once again which it means to give..forgive...and forget. I should not allow the past from pulling me back and devouring that sensitive side of me. It time to pull away and step in the present, preparing to run towards the future which i've always wanted.

For a New Year, i think thats a great start. I'm sory dear, for being unfair to you all these time.

Happy V. Day to All

2007-02-14T19:16:00.000+08:00

Happy V. Day to All

Yes its that time of the year again. Good for those who are attached, irritating for those who are single. I'm one of those who don't enjoy going out on Valantine's Day cause i think it's over commercialise however i'm not single. Alrighty i'm abit strange. =p

Caught up with projects lately, just handed up OTD and i can still still the burden releasing from my back. It does feel good. One down and alot more to go. Maybe its the mood or something, but surprisingly Sherman (the most long-winded teacher you could ever find on earth) actually turns out to be interesting today. For once i didnt had the urge to want to kill somebody when i hear him talk. Makes me wonder about the mood thing, does it really affect the day? When things goes right, does it just go well all the way?

To back my side of the story, here are the list of things that makes my day:

The person who altered my Mango jeans (they are beautiful btw, once of the best investment a girl can ever make) commented that i have nice long legs, very suitable to wear jeans.
Saw Alex today and he made a remark "Are you wearing make up?" and i said "no" so he ended with "Man then you must have really good skin." (I think the facial and the products i'm using is really paying off *snickle)
Found a parking lot immediately when i reach my dad's office, it's usually full and i need to wait.
Got a job at Selatar Camp to seel drinks at the bazaar and earn $50 and i only worked from 6pm to 9pm. Had fun too, they have cute guys there. =p
Clear 3 debts today, got back the money people own me so i feel abit richer today.

That's the summary of it but hey for 24hrs i think its not bad. If this keeps up, this year is going to be great! I guess that's how it works, the theory is probably the same for a bad day when everything just gets messed up.

It explains why Donald Trump never shakes hand, it's one of his quarks that one find it hard to accept. It's his belief that energy and the mood of the person is transferable from people to people. He needs all the focus and energy to keep his empire running so i guess on his perspective it make sense.

For someone whose not at his level yet, someone like me (not yet but will be in the future) i just got to keep up and stay energetic as much as i can. Quite sure it will pay off somehow. Got a very good feeling for this year and I like it. =)

Got to head back to do WIL now...

P.S To the 'gang' Chu 3 evening we will be meeting for our reunion dinner. Please get back to Zhi Yong on attandence. Place and actual timing will be comfirmed again.

Do you like Sundays?

2007-02-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

Do you like Sundays?

Under a hot sunny day i studied for my test, did my Organisation Behaviour project and attempted to complete a little more of my WIL project. I'm starting to question myself do i like Sunday?

Was suppose to meet up with my juniors to caoch them for the upcoming IVP. Due to some turn of events this was cancelled and pushed to Tuesday evening. My apologies to them, will make up to you guys. In short it was such a busy day that i'm starting not to like it that much. However i will make an exception this time and pray that the next one will be better.

Sundays usually are a day of family outings, rest day where people relax from a rough week. Why do we as humans or rather the city mice look forward for weekends so much? Are the weekdays so dreadful? In the bible, Sundays where people rest from a week of work to give thanks to God and worship him. So is it a natural thing for us to like Sundays better?

I reckon its a mix of feelings. Here's a few replies i've gathered wheni pop the question 'Do you like Sundays?':

Sidik: nope when i got work on monday
Hangwei: no difference (sort of expected this reply from him)
LiangWen: sun morning and afternoon but not evening
Michelle: hmm. i do. but i still prefer saturdays.

Well as for me? I like anyday as long as it's a good day. =) Got to keep this post short, need to hit back for my studies. It's a new week already.

Everything happen for a good reason

2007-02-10T00:09:00.000+08:00

Everything happen for a good reason

Another decision was made today, the V. day booth was cancelled due to too much inconvience from the management side. We made some loss but its not that big a deal. Lesson learnt, in Singapore, everything needs a licence. On a bright note, Now i have more time to concentrate on my test and project next week. So everything happen for a good reason and the reason will definately be of benefit to me. =)

Went out with the Wasabis, i must say they are a load of fun to hang out with. We talked about everything, from the past, present to future. Time seems to fly when people least notice it. I think the best decision i ever made to choose the path i want in life and not to be swayed by social pressure. Thru out this process i met great people and made great friends.

Nothing is ever coincidental, everything happened and occured for a good reason, thats my belief. Everything occur has a reason behind it and every action we take will cause a certain result. It's like a ripple effect. You change a certain mind set and BAM! your course of life will be alter. Change a perspective and BAM! the action you take will differ and change the outcome. God just made this place so interesting.

Well, evening met up with Shi Wei for dinner and iris check up. She's a friend which i known since we were toddlers, friends like that are hard to come by and i treasure the relationship we have. The good news is her health is better than my, the not so good news is she still need abit more care in regards to her diet. In fact i think most of us need to,our lifestyle is just so messed up.

In short today was a good day. I'm starting to love this year, its this tinkling feeling i have which keeps telling me this year will be great. Btw, my cat step on my hp and 4 digits appear, i think i might try on my luck on 4-D just for once. *snickle

Happy Weekend to all!

Decisions

2007-02-09T00:24:00.000+08:00

Decisions

I was walking down from the car park to my dad's place today when i receive a phone call from my mum. Her first words were 'So what you want to eat tonight?'. As simple as it sound i was stumped for a moment. So i replied 'frog leg?' but apparently my sister wants to eat marche. In the end i won the 'food battle' and we headed for Geylang.

Decision, decisons, decisions, do we have to make them everyday? Today i choose to miss half a lecture to go back home and take a short nap. These few days has be rather busy to the extend i think i forgot to plan time to rest. Right choice i think, i feel rejuvernated. =) Then i made a decision to carry out my Maggie Mee plan. Need abit of help from Darryl but i think there is a fair trade going on. Need to thank him on that.

The next decision i made was to not back up from the bazzar, some confusion going on and what was planned was rejected from SIM. It's hard to come up with a last minute plan but i think we should finish what we started, I'm quite sure we can pull it off.

All these stuff are minor things. What about those major ones? I made a choice to go Polytechnic when i could have gone to JC, made a choice to go SIM when i was accepted by NTU's media and communication. So far no regrets, cause i lived the way i wanted to, that is to be free and happy. As Naruto would say 'That is my way of ninja', in the case it will be..'That is my way of life'.

Well, i guess we have to make decicion everyday. From what to eat to what to wear, its a choice. Every action leds to a result and the result determines the future. I'm looking forward to a bright future, with my friends and family. =)

Side track
http://just.sg/ - This is something interesting my friend Zhi Yong came up with. You can upload pictures and it turn them into a collage. I think its cute. =) Try it!

24 hours isn't enough

2007-02-08T00:15:00.000+08:00

24 hours isn't enough

After a day of projects, projects and projects i dawned to me that 24 hours just isn't enough. Things to need to do this week and next:

Finished up WIL individual project (dateline 16th Feb)
Finished up my part for OTD (dateline 14th Feb)
Finish studying for MAB by Mon evening
Setting up Valentine's Day booth (Mon, Tue and Wed morning and noon burnt, evening would most probably be spend on finishing up projects)
Coach Amber on Fri morning before meeting up with Germaine and the girls
Saturday Morning lesson, noon project meeting, evening cousin's birthday party
Sunday training for pattern team, noon studying for MAB test probably last till night

And the list goes on. At this point i'm suppose to freak and get all panicky, my usual self would feel all pressured and stress up. However this time round i felt a sense of satisfaction. It feels that i'm making good use of my time. After Chinese New Year i'm going to try to accomplish my Maggie Mee idea. not sure how it goes but i think it might work if i'm given the green light.

One way or another i'm determined to make this year a good one. One with prosperity and also one with doing good. So far its been working out great. =)

I've understood the using time in exchange for money is not going to work for me. I'm just not into that idea. Sort of done some maths, considering if i were to earn $3000 a month for my job next time, I will only have $36,000 a year. Which also means it will take 27 years for me to become a millionaire. And that calculation does not include the money i have to spend on house, care, children and daily expenses. Woah wait a min...I'm not going to live like that!

I guess i understood why my dad started his business and till now i truly respect him for taking care of my family well. And i want to be like him, or should i say better than him. He once commented to me ' if today i didn't have my business, and have to worry about money everyday, your attitude, your sis attitude and your mum's attitude will be totally different.' And i sort of agree with him. If we were poor, alot of unhappiness may occur. Statistics has shown that 50% of divorced is caused by money issues.

I know its like 'oh man..money minded' but lets make it this way, its my way of ensuring of having a good and stable future. I don't ever want my family to break up because of money, i've seen my mother's side close to being shattered caused of that. It's not a happy sight. I want my life to be full of colors, not darkness. Which is why i worked hard now and many people i know are too. Like HangWei, Dickson, Summer, Nicholas and a few more, you know who you are.

We all have dreams, but why do we have them? Cause dreams makes us happy and that's what i'm going after. It's not money, its happiness. =)

Changes - Good or Bad?

2007-02-06T23:33:00.000+08:00

Changes - Good or Bad?

Met up with Sidik and Sherlene today. Had a great meal and ice-cream waffles. Geleta is having a 50% off promotion, only $3 for waffles every Tuesday! Yummy yum yum! Meeting with them just made me realise that i'm already 23 this year. Man should i say its a cruel truth that time do fly so fast.

To reflect back i think to a certain extend i've changed. Whether its good or bad is a judgement call for my friends. Some thinks its better, some just can't accept the change, which i think its natural. Certain changes are hard to accept and its inevitable the people are resistent to it.

In any case, be it their perspective, i like myself alot better now. I know what i want and do in life, more driven with a purpose, happier that i can help more people. I feel more alive and love life even more. A few years back i'm just aloof, at times empty..its a scary feeling if you know what i mean. Today i'm more motivated in life, i finally understand the meaning of 'giving'. Many a times we just keep taking from people, we often lose ourself and become overly self-centered.

Throughout this period I've made more good friends yet lost some old ones in the process. It not fair to say that those i've lost are not real friends, however i think dare to comment that i felt misunderstood. Nevertheless i can only pray time can help them to understand. To those who stood by me i just want to say Thank You! You guys know who you are. =)

On a lighter note. Here's some picture of my cats who made me life brighter and never fail to make me smile. =)

Brownie: He sits like my dad. Fat eh? hee

Baby: She's elegent and the smarter one. =)

Staring at computer gives 'hei ban'

2007-02-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

Staring at computer gives 'hei ban'

Stephaine Yeo will proberly remember this, as shocking it was to her and me, yes staring at the computer can result in 'hei ban' in fact it quickens the effect. Thats due to some UV rays that the screen gives out. Thanks to my facial lady, she taught me alot of facts i should know about face and how to take care of it and for once in my life, i realise the importance of getting good UV protection.

Some facts i learnt:
1. Wash you face in a rotational motion - helps in improving blood cirulation and cells restoration

2. Use products that has ph 5.5 - too acidic or too alkine may cause your skin to be too dependent on the product. Our skin is naturally at ph5.5

3. Use the same type series - dont use toner brand X then day care brand Y. Your skin may have a hard time trying to adjust to everything. If its bad, may result in sensitive skin.

4. The importance of toner(water based and without alcohol content) - It helps to kill germs and close the pores.

5. The importance of UV protection day cream - Protects skin from UV rays (sun and computer) and prevent the birth of 'hei pan'. In English i think its called freckles.

6. When choosing an eye care, choose gel base - cream based ones will cause clogging around the eye area, thats why some people have this white thing the looks like it contains oil on the face.

These are just the few facts that i was taught from her, still have many more. Apparently that place is not bad cause it has been mention in the Fann Wong show, so should be reliable (maybe that's why she got good skin la). It's quite an interesting topic, for ladies especially. Men should take care too, whether you believe it or not, girl like guys with good skin too. =p

Let's just say i'm thankful that after all these tips and going to facial, my face condition has very much improved. Zhi Ling, Amber and a few of my other friends seem to notice the difference. I'm a happy girl!

My aim: look like i'm in my 20's when i'm 30. To all my lady friends! Jia You!

My black and white fur balls

2007-02-05T00:26:00.000+08:00

My Black and White fur balls

6 months ago my family found a litter of kittens in our store room (we live in the first floor). My sis decided to adopt 2 of them much to my mother's disagreement. But its amzing how animals gets to your heart.

My mum now treats them like part of the family. The family grew closer cause of these 2 cats (baby and brownie - guess which is which? hee). Every sunday is like watching live animal planet, they will run around the green patch outside of my house, pretending to catch birds and till this day they weren't successful.

I use to be a dog lover, but i think when i have a family of my own, i will choose to own a cat now. They are just much more easy to take care, less needy and cleans after themselves. Btw this is a picture of them pooing by the kitty litter, cute eh?

So why the topic about my cats suddenly? It just dwelled on me today how important it is to have a good family and be happy. Without a happy family at the back of you, its really hard to be successful. I like a good place to call home, relax and chill. went out with my mum and sis for shopping. As much as its boring because i didnt get to buy anything, but i had fun. =)

I have many friends who come from broken families and i admire them for being strong. Its tough and it inevitably affects a person well-being and mindset. What parents say to the child can affect their grown and mold his future. I once went for a talk who taught me how to take care of myself and baby before, during and after birth. (boyfriend's idea btw =p). Its by a admirable lady, her son is dignose by the doctor as one of the rare very healthy babies in Singapore. Won't go into details what it talk about today, its interesting but its an entry for another day.

My point is, remember that whatever we say and what ever we do today is a result of what our parents had done to affect us. If you reflect, you will see that you take after certain trades your parents have, whether its good or bad. What they say even as a casual remark can impact our lives.

Sometimes even friends to friends can mean as much. Let's try to input positive words to others. I'm also trying, its tough but hey i've got nothing to lose. What goes around comes around anyway. =)

$5 dollars a day

2007-02-02T23:28:00.000+08:00

$5 dollars a day

"Do you know that if you save $5 a day and put them in a bank, teachnically you would have become a millionaire?" This is what i got from my boyfriend the moment i see him. Nicholas is his name btw. Thats really some food for thought.

As easy as it sounds, the discipline itself has the hard part. Let's make it this way, most of us are gulity of spending every cent we have on things we want like (mark me i said 'want') like handphones, bags, wallets, clothes and an expensive meal etc. To suddenly switch that habit and control the urge of buying 'wants' is just tough.

However i do want to be a 'tai tai' by the age of 40. Thats good motivation to start with. Don't enjoy being a 8 to 5 worker till i'm 65 years old. Have to worry about pension, work my ass off to please someone else. Really not a fan or that. Just met with Brian today as yup, the usual story, 'Man work suxs la'.

Since last year i've been twigging my mindset regarding money. My boyfriend and i are fortunuate to have known a self made millionaire. They are a husband and wife couple. So we were thought a few mindsets to how to guard our money and why so many people despite earning thousands a month can still end up in debts. For now i'm happy to say my wealth is starting to reap some results as compared to before. Still have alot of work to do so JIA YOU! =)

Still working hard to clear my bad debts for this year, apparently i'm like a loan shark lending money.

1st lesson learnt : Always clear you debts, be it you own people or people own you. I'm keeping track of my financials. Its a way of gurding my money, i used to forget that people own my money and 'weeee', money just fly away without me knowing.

2nd lesson: always pay yourself first. Most of our money are spend on paying off debts, buying stuff or what so ever. We often forget that we need to first pay ourselves. What do i mean by that? Meaning you put a side a certain portion of your money. Example 10% and make sure you dont ever touch it. Unless your using the money to earn money.

Still have alot but should stop for now. Starting to get too naggy at myself. Typing in seems to be reminding why i'm doing all these. For my future of course. =)

On a happy note, i'm glad people around me are taking interest on their health since my last post. Yup! i'm paying it forward.

Are you healthy?

2007-02-01T23:49:00.000+08:00

Are you healthy?

A few days back i went for an irodology check up by my bf company. Cost me only $10. It's something like a body check up and its very much more accurate as it relates the problem of the body to you even before the illness happens. Well it turns out that I'm not in a pink of health.

I have signs of developing lumps in my breast, which to think back, a did felt something there a few months back, just didn't read to much into it. It also diagnose that i often sleep late, lack of water, tension on my back (could be a result of stress) and my leg sustained a certain injury a few years back (I do teakwundo, so i guess it inevitable). And mind you, I'm only 23 this year, shock the crap out of me.

Scary huh. Then again, how many of us really are healthy? Look at the way we eat and sleep. Most people of my age don't rest till the see the sun rising. We eat meat, junk and at irregular hours. To be honest i'm starting to feel abit scare now. What's life without health? i don't want to be dependent on medication when i'm like 40 or ever! The irony is, we don't bother till an illness hit us hard. IT TIME TO WAKE UP!

Prevention is better than cure. I think i'm going to start taking that thing my mum has been trying out for the pass 3 months.

3 months ago, my mum was diagnose with 4 lumps on her breast, thank god its not cancerous. Still it might develop therefore extra caution was to be taken and it sort of shock my family. Well to cut the story short, my boyfriend passed her this thing pink color packet thingy for her to taken everyday and guess what? 3 months later when she was back, the doctor actually told her that 2 of the lumps had disappeared and the other remaining 2 had shrink in size.

It not some miracle cure, of course my mum also altered her lifestyle and diet at the same time. Less meat more veggie. After Chinese New Year going to go for juicing to detox. How often do we clean the rubbish in our body?

Do you know that if you shit less than twice a day, the amount of waste in your intestine will start to rot, resulting in poisonous substance to seep thru the membrane of the intestine to other part of our body? That's how lumps and cancer develops which is also why so many female keep having stomach cramps. Its not suppose to hurt at the time of the month. When it hurts, it your body giving a sign that your body is weak.

Oh btw all these fact i got from a book written by Dr Bernard Jensen, not so smart to come up with all these ideas. His a man whose has a skin of a 20 year old when his 80. I listen to him cause i also want to look like 20 when i'm 40 ( not too much to ask for right). =p

I want to live well. Dr George always say 'a healthy man is a happy man'. I wish people around me to live well too. Thankfully my mum buys organic fruit and makes them into juice for me every morning. Note to self - less meat in diet, more veggie and fruits and sleep earlier (hee).

I once had a friend who those me 'aiya i think organic that issue is debatable'. Was abit irritated by that remark but I chose not to allow him to shake my faith to living healthier. So far it helped my mum and me (to grow abit fatter as i use to be, as my friend would say, 'too skinny for my own good')

Wealth = Health + Money

That my belief.

You are not losers, you just not use to being a winner

2007-02-01T01:09:00.000+08:00

"You are not losers, you are just not use to being a winner "

A few hours ago i was in the theater watching a movie, Gridiron Gang, starred by The Rock. Probably the last show on my list that i wanted to watch, nevertheless i went along with my boyfriend to catch it. It turn out to be unexpectedly good and inspiration and the best part is, its based on a true story.

I wont talk about the plot to spoil anyone who is reading my blog, however one particular phrase caught my attention. "You are not losers, you are just not use to being a winner", how true is that?

To reflect on that, how often do we get use to being just 'average' that we simply lose interest in being 'winners'? I'm guilty of that, to just want to get by as long as i don't turn out to be the worse in class or work or to be exact, in almost everything i do in the past. But i do remember the feeling of winning, to stand on the highest platform and receive a medal. That was 3 years ago, during the National Tournament, a moment to remember.

The medal by itself is worthless, its the meaning behind the medal that is invaluable. It represents hard work, obstacles that has to be conquered, enduring long hours of practise, getting mentally ready, falling and standing up again and many many more of hardship to go thru, which finally paid off! To prove people who did not believe in me that i did it, that I'm worthy of attaining that title and no one can rob me of my faith and happiness.

On a brighter note, i fortunate to be able to make friends with people i see as winners. As Wei Quan would put it, they are people with 'defeatist attitudes, can lead to empowerment and increase self-esteem'. I met with one to day, her name is Sharon. A good friend of mine in Secondary school. To me she is a fighter, fighting for her dreams and achieve what she wants out of life. People like that don't come by often... does it?

It's a new year and i''m already have the feeling that its going to be great! Its time to start to get use to being a winner. After all we only walk on this earth once, lets not waste it. We all won the race of life before we were in our mother's womb, winning against other 'tapoles' and going against the odds. So why can't we win this round too? =)

Cheers to all.

Is the world really that round?

2007-01-31T00:09:00.000+08:00

Is the world really that round?

"You look familiar..." A guy that walk passed me said
"Do i know you?" I wondered.
It turn out to be a friend who was from Jurong Junior College. when i studied there years ago. To be honest i didn't remember him as it was years back (don't i sound old...). However after doing a little catch up with him, a some memories came back, he was my classmate and the chemisty person-in-charge. To make the story short, we soon exchange contacts to keep in touch. Apparently we were in good terms back then and I kinda helped him abit before i made a sudden decision to switch to Polytechnic.

A few more words of exchange i realise that his the head of events for the entrepreneurship club in SIM, which is exactly what my friends and i need, a place to sell our roses and fondue for Valentine's day.

Suddenly a question struck me, Is it True that what goes around comes around? Or my friends would put it 'retribution' or 'karma'.

Isn't it mind blogging to know the The Bible preaches on 'Do what you want others to do unto you', Buddhist touch on 're-carnation', Catholic and other religions emphasize that by doing good deeds will indirectly bless the you.. so on and so forth. Yet who can vouch that all these teachings are real?

A minutes from playing with my cats and packet of hokkien mee later, instead of pondering alone about this question, i decided to ask a few friends of mine in hope to find some 'enlightenment'. It appears that many of them believe in that theory despite recalling any such incidents happening on their personal lives. Maybe the word 'Faith' fits in to their thinking, that if they continue to do good, good things will happen back to them someday. Kinda reminds me of a saying someone once told me - "Faith is believing in what you cannot see". How true is that.

But I can't help but wonder, what about the bad things that people do to others? Backstabbing, stealing, hurting others etc... the same rule applies? Or will it travel faster? Will the chain be broken in any point of time if one person stands up with a different point of view?

Well, from a personal perspective, unconsciously as humans being, we want to feel that glimpse of hope that life can be great, a little bit of faith can go a long way. That by helping others, we can make others feel good about themselves and at the same time accumulate abit more good deeds into our "life account". Sort of sees it like a bank account, you know good deeds are credit and bad deeds are debits.

Better more than less in this sense is my way of thinking, I guess it doesnt hurt to lend a helping hand once in awhile.. does it? =)

testing

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